Wednesday, September 30, 2020
12/3/18 Angels Among Us and A TIME OF GRIEF!
Just to preview, it's been a rough few days. On 11/30, Friday night immediately after the blessings of bread and wine, Madison told Darrell and me that she was moving in with Alex the next day. The next morning she had to work, but got up and packed a few things and left for work. She would not be coming home. I keep crying every time I think of her. I miss her terribly, and I see her sweet face as a child looking up at me. I just want to hold her one more time. She hasn't called or even texted her dad or me. I'm crying now as I type this. I went in her room yesterday, and just cried seeing all that she left. It was as if she was saying she didn't want to take this part of herself into her new future. Most of all, I am concerned for her own salvation. The truth is is that I have noticed a change in Madison for some time now. I don't know whether to blame the people she works with, Alex, or maybe it is all of them. But Madison has changed. My heart is broken because I think of the wonderful dreams that the Lord gave her, and I wonder if they still apply. Abba have mercy!
The dream started that we lived in a house, it was my house, and I came out of my bedroom and heard some noises. I think I saw a chunky woman first, maybe she was sitting at the kitchen table. I think I asked her what she was doing here, but she didn't answer. Immediately after I saw the attic door opened and the latter pulled down. Then I saw another person, maybe a child. Then I began seeing more people, up to maybe 4 or 5 in all. One of them was standing in the attic. In my dream I realized that they were angels sent by God to assist me, and I was very thankful. I bowed to the ground to praise God for the help. Then I remember walking in the downtown area of my town and seeing two of the angels putting a banner or something on the door of a shop. Then I think one of the angels may have died or something. I don't understand how an angel could die. I think it was an older man angel. ??? But I woke up feeling almost happy. Under the circumstance, that is wonderful. Yesterday I woke up and my first thought was I realized that our home has forever changed with Madison gone, and this was my reality. Utter despair.
Carla is either hiding her emotions well, or glad for Madison that she got out of the house. Like good for her almost. Adam is just dealing with it and I think Darrell and I are so upset. Adam is very compassionate. He commented that Madison hasn't really talked to him since he was 13 or so. How sad and lonely he must have been. She wouldn't hug Carla or Adam. I don't know why, but it broke my heart for them.
I remember her kisses as a child. They were the sweetest things. She had this gentleness about her that I had never experienced in this life. She had wisdom, patience, and peace that surpassed anything anyone else had ever demonstrated and she was only a child. She was a gift from the Most High. But something changed in her. She didn't demonstrate anything to cause me to believe she was different, she just was. I can't put my finger on it. She just was.
90 Souls in Somalia Lost
This morning I dreamt that a TV screen was in the corner of my bedroom. The morning news was on and they told how 90 people had died in Somalia.
90 = 9 (judgment) x 10 (God's divine order)
Somalia = to persevere
12/7/18
I dreamt that I was in my bedroom and heard some noises in the living room. I was not fully dressed - only wearing a shirt and no pants when I opened my bedroom door and hid behind my door. I saw Adam sitting in the living room with people we didn't know sitting there with him. I put some clothes on (I guess) and I went out to see who they were. They looked frumpy, not quite homeless, although they were. I'm not sure how many people were actually here. I would guess maybe 7-10? ?? I remember talking to the woman who was laying on our couch, like that is where she slept. She expects to stay with us. Adam invited them. Then I looked at Adam and saw him only wearing his bathing suit. I thought he needed to go put some clothes on. (It's cold right now!) I told her there was no way they could stay. Darrell would flip, and I didn't want them here either. Then a thought occurred to me. What if this was the fulfillment of the dream I had a few years ago? What if these were the people I was supposed to provide a place to stay? Then I asked her how many people were with her, and she replied, "212 or 214 in all." (I can't recall which one.) I also remember that we had a hallway leading to the garage but it was unfinished. There were shelves on the wall holding a tiny planter, maybe 2 inches wide, that spurted water out the sides. How strange. Half of the wall just had sheetrock leaning up against it. There was a man who started cleaning out the leaves, and I told him to leave them. That was our insulation. He was trying to help us. He was part of the group of people. Then I woke up.
2+1+2 = 5 grace or 2+1+4 =7 Divine order
If Adam represents mankind, then why would mankind invite people to stay at our house?
I was partially dressed and I think this means I was unprepared for what's coming. I think the unfinished house speaks to almost the same thing.
I think it is funny I thought of another dream inside of this one.
What could that tiny flower pot mean? It was fake .
12/12/18 Grayson
Yesterday was 12/12/18. I knew today my daughter Carla would be taking Grayson to my younger daughter so he can live with her. Madison, my younger daughter, left us on 12/1/18. I think the dream was about her leaving and not the dog. I think this is what divorce must feel like. Someone you love with all your heart rejects you and everything you have taught them. They abandon you. Things should have been very different. But they were not. She left me. She left us. Madison left, and I don't know if I will ever see her again. She is leaving for NV in about 4-5 weeks. I'm not even sure when. She's leaving.
Darrell's Dream -Sparrows
Darrell dreamt that he was on the floor catching sparrows (or some very small birds) as they made their way through this contraption. At first they came out slowly, but then the speed picked up and he would hide them under his belly.
I told him that sparrows in Scripture are symbolic of something little or not that importance. The sparrows represent people who had found their way out of this contraption (system of religion) and as time passes more will come out. That gives me hope.
Gold Furniture and Large Blue Gemstone
I only remember a couple of flashes of last night's dream. I was trying to arrange furniture in my living room, but it was way too crowded. Additionally, all of the furniture's fabric was covered in gold. Some of it was polished and bright while another piece was not as bright.
I also recall purchasing a very large, beautiful blue, precious or semi-precious gemstone. It was cut in a rectangular shape with 3 of the sides very smooth, but one ends was rough. After I purchased it I wondered what I was going to do with something so large. I could not make it into a ring as the size of the stone would be as large as the width of 3 of my fingers and likely as long. It was too large for a pendant too. It took all of my money.
submitted to God Dreams and Visions on 12/23/17
I thought...
I wondered if the furniture could represent people who are in my life. We have to find places for everyone to fit, and some do shine more brightly than others. However, my life was, and is, not overly crowded at the moment. Maybe it is for some time in the future.. On the other hand, could the furniture represent knowledge? I can definitely see where I have way too much knowledge. I don't mean that to sound arrogant at all. It is just with the mountains of knowledge I have learned in the last 7 years, I do wonder at times if I will need it all. It is all valuable, and like people, some shines more brightly (more valuable) than others. Now the gem stone is perplexing. The color blue is obvious, but I wonder if it too represents people or knowledge. Consider one side of it was unfinished or unrefined. They probably represent both.
12/31/18
A friend on FB, Samantha, said she thought of Exodus 31 and thinks the gold furniture was all of the gifts God has given me. The gemstone is my salvation. I gave everything I have to Yeshua after I became saved.
Hidden Understanding
The other night I dreamt I was explaining patterns and cycles that have been hidden until now. The patterns and cycles surrounded the number 3 were tied to our lives, world events, and Scripture. Now I understand how YHVH speaks in numbers, not for predicting the future, but as an additional layer of understanding giving depth of meaning and connecting matters. The visualization I was given were white rings interlaced not only horizontally but also with many, many layers. Of course when I awoke I did not remember any of this hidden wisdom, but it does give me hope that perhaps in the near future, perhaps in our resurrected bodies we will have the perception and wisdom for deeper revelation. Praise YeHoVaH!
Gold Paint
Last night I had a dream, but I only remember a snippet of the dream. I was in bed and I saw a small packet of paint on my nightstand. I think I was getting out of bed and knocked it on the floor. Shiny, gold paint poured all over the bedroom floor. There is no way that tiny packet held that much paint. It spread most of the way from my bed to my bedroom door.
Paint is used to cover things.
Gold-symbolic of wisdom and high quality ministerial work, 1Cor. 3:12
Gives me hope for the future.
Black Man In A White House
A few nights ago I dreamt that I was married to an elderly black man (70i+sh). I knew I had never consummated the relationship. Although, I was still married to Darrell. ???? We (?) lived in his house. It was completely furnished with lots of things to decorate it, but it was almost completely white. It was so full that there was really no room for our things, and when we put our things down it was cluttered, but I think I had lived there a while. I opened my bedroom (the black man slept in another room) closet door, and it was filled with the black man's clothes - filled to the brim! I remember different shades of purple ties from lavender to deep purple. I remember thinking how kind he was. It was like I had been there a long time, but I had never done his laundry. He commented something like that each person should do his own laundry. I'm not sure if that was when, but at some point I went over to him and kissed his forehead. I knew this was the most intimate moment we had had.
I am so disturbed by this dream because black people have always signified demons or people who were covered in their sin. What in the world could this dream mean. Everything was white which signifies purity. ????
A Weed in My Mind
Pulling off Wallpaper & A Room For Worship
I can only remember fragments of my dreams lately. I feel there is more, but it is beyond my reach.
In last night's dream, I recall living in a house that we did not build. I remember being in a room and seeing a wall covered in wallpaper, but upon closer examination I saw it was hung by paperclip. It was clipped to the wall and not pasted. I pulled the first layer down. It was a soft pink with a small pattern in it. Next, after the first layer came down it exposed another layer of wallpaper. I think this layer was green with a small print. Then a third layer was exposed. I don't remember the color of the last layer. When all of the wallpaper finally came down, it exposed a wall made of up of wood. It was like inlayed wood that created a beautiful pattern. I could hardly believe that anyone would cover this beautiful woodwork.
The next part of the dream I walked into a part of the house that I rarely used and forgot it was there. It was a giant room, and I thought it would be big enough to hold an assembly inside. Then I remembered that we had held a gathering before there, but it had been so long I had forgotten it was even in my home. I was happy to have found it again. It was covered in wood too. The walls, the floor, the ceiling, the seats was all wood.
Darrell's Dream 2 Injections
Darrell dreamt that a nurse had put 2 injections / IV types in his arm. Both were still in. He pulled one out unaware of the other, but then he saw the 2nd. They left an indication that something was still under his skin. He squeezed it, and Yuck!
2/25/19 Straight Down the Mountain into Blackness
The next part of the dream I was with a group of people and we were in a large car or small bus on the very top of a mountain and headed down, straight down the mountain. I thought it felt like I was on a rollercoasters it was so scary. I looked out the front windshield and it was just complete blackness we were headed into. I was terrified.
Carla represents the free man being turned into a slave. At first he/she will just be mistreated, but finally they will be enslaved. The mountain represents a place of spiritual elevation, but the blackness represents the future. Hold on. Here we go.
On the same night Darrell dreamt that he was riding his bicycle which was powered by paper towels. He was in a race to Callahan. About half way through his paper towel roll ran out of paper towels. He pulled out another roll, but it was empty. He had to peddle as fast as he could to get there. He passed by two people named Darlene. (Tenderly loved by God)
Darrell's Dream. He had to move out. 3/14/19
3/16/19 Nonnie's House
I was a child at times and other times in the dream I was an adult. I was with my dad, but I don't remember him there, but I knew he was with us. And I was with my sister, Glenda. She and I were napping in a little bed. Then I was walking through the house with her. The house was nothing like it is in reality. It had large open rooms, and it was all white. I remember seeing my grandfather, Nano, and talking to him. To my surprise he could speak English. I wanted to tell him how bad the Catholic religion was (praying to idols and such) but I don't think those things ever came out of my mouth. I think I realized he was too ingrained in it. Then he just disappeared and I remembered he had already died and must have been a ghost. I remember walking through the house and looking inside kitchen and the pantry. The pantry door was very large and beautiful. The inside of the pantry walls were at angles. But instead of shelving each wall was made up of other doors. The doors were not working but propped up to act as a barrier to the next room. I remember opening a curtain expecting to find a beautiful view, but instead I saw an orange glass with a wavy texture in it obscuring the view. (Orange represents the fire of God. The wavy texture might have mimicked the movement of fire.) Then I remember looking for Glenda, and I was so sleepy I could not keep my eyes open. It was a real struggle. I asked someone who was locking up the home if I could look for her in a back room, and he said, "Yes," and he unlocked the door. I went in, but she wasn't there.
Rico on Shabbat
Early this morning I dreamt that we were hosting Rico Cortes in our home but he didn't teach. He just stayed in his room (Adam's room). I would be napping and wake up and ask Darrell why Rico could not teach the TP, and I would not really get an answer. He would just ignore me like he does in real life. Then I would go back to sleep, and wake up again and ask again. I felt we were wasting this time for him to teach us. The day was almost gone and I felt terrible.
I wonder if in this dream Rico might represent Ruach haKodesh and remind us that we are not allowing Him to teach us while He is right here, and we are wasting time.
BACKDRAFT , WIND, or BOTH
Sept 11, 2019
18 years later
Last night I had a dream, but I only remember a tiny bit, but it woke me up, or something woke me up. I dreamt that I was in a large office or auditorium type facility with a lot of glass walls. In fact, all of the walls were glass. A small fire broke out, but it quickly proceeded to engulf the whole room. The room was filled with people seemingly unaware it was in flames. I tried and I tried to warn them, but no one listened. They just carried on with their business. Next, I was awakened by this sound. OH MY! It scared me so much. It was the sound of a GIANT WIND whipping sheets around, but it could have also been the sound of a backdraft (fire). It scared me so much I had Darrell walk around the house (he even went outside) to make sure there was no real fire in our home. (Because I have dreamt that the back door was unlocked, I got up to check, and it was indeed unlocked.) This was so real, so loud, and so frightening. I'm sure you get the gist of the main part of the dream, but I'll have to pray about the sound. If it was the wind, it could be exemplifying the presence and POWER of Ruach haKodesh (Holy Spirit), or it could be announcing the judgement of YHVH. Finally, it could be, and probably is both because, well, that's usually how YHVH, the Lord, works. Wow. That was quick, but powerful. The only thing I have to compare it to was when I would be awakened in the middle of the night by a knocking on my door or headboard or hearing my name being called. I have even heard that being wide awake while I'm getting dressed in the bathroom.
No Butter or Chicken, Keys to Regal and Rented Red Mustang
I had a dream last night and I'm not sure what to make of it. In the dream I was in a type of grocery store. They had no butter or chicken, so I left with out anything. But on the way out I walked through a dining area that was crowded. I realized I walked too far, I turned around and left. I went into the parking lot, and at first I couldn't remember where my car was. Next, I couldn't remember what kind of car I had, when I finally remembered I had a rental car. It was a red Mustang, but I still didn't know where it was. (I've never owned a Mustang.) It was like I was stuck in the parking lot, lost and looking around. About that time, I have an old Christian friend who was much younger in the dream. (She is probably in her late 70's early 80's now, but in the dream she may have been 60.) She saw me walk into the dining area. She came up to me and said she needed to return the keys to my car. It was as if it was the least she could do for me (as if she was far indebted to me). It was my old '80 Buick Regal Somerset I had when I was in high school. It was a nice car back then. That was it. She handed me the keys and the dream ended.
Intersting: I just looked up Buick Buick "The name derives from the old English pre 7th Century "beo" meaning bee and "wic" a farm; hence a "bee farm", apparently originally it was a station for the production of honey." Honey is one thing that can not be touched in Revelation.
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Paula
5-9-2020 A Hole Built Into the Wall
I was in my bedroom and I saw a hole that was built into the wall. It was about 18" x 12". It was right at the floor beside my bed. On the other side of the wall was the pool. It was only inches away from the wall. Through the hole in the floor you could see the pool, but I noticed a darker hole in the ground where a guinea pig was playing. I was very alarmed that bugs or rats might get in the house.
I know I dreamt more, but that's all I remember. I had forgotten it when I got up, but while I was taking a shower it came back to me.
Emergency Lights, Exploding Sand, People Moving Through Water
I had a flew flash dreams this morning before I woke up. In both I thought I was already awake, and you know how disturbing those dreams are.
In the first dream, I was laying in bed and I looked to my right seeing an abundance of police and rescue lights flashing as if something serious had happened. FYI Our house sits on a corner, and our bedroom faces away from both of the streets. It is the back of the house. That's all there was in the dream - emergency lights. I think this one is self explanatory.
In the 2nd dream, I just saw sand (?) as if it was moving vilolently. In the dream I wondered what I was seeing and I thought maybe it was smoke from explosions, but it really looked more like sand. This one is more curious. Abrahams descendants were said to be as numerous as the start and as the sand. They both have their own comparisons. When they are compared to the stars they are considered to behave in a more spiritual manner, but when they are compared to the sand, they are thought to be more earthly / carnal. This would make sense considering the volatile nature of the dream. It was as if it was exploding. Thus, the dream represents a very volatile people. Now I'm not talking about just Jews, remember they are only 2 1/10ish of the Hebrew tribes. (The Jews consist of Judah, Benjamin, who was assimilated before the other 10 were scattered, and then their portion of the Levites.) So there are a *LOT* of Abraham's descendants out there just like the number of the stars and sands of the sea.
In the 3rd dream, I was sitting on dry ground but just about 10 feet away was like a river of water (or ocean?). There was water as far as I could see, and thousands of people were all waking in it in the same direction. The water was about knee deep. It was as if they were all moving to another location with just the clothes on their backs. Everyone was wet and tired. There was a tremendous heaviness in the air. I was stationary. It was as if I was waiting on Darrell to come back.
Then I was tormented by a demon that woke me up. I actually woke up in between all of these dreams. One of the demons was posing as a very good and trusted friend who was talking to me, and then it turned into almost a buzzing and it attacks me at the base of the back of my head like it was trying to get inside. I woke up and told it to get out in Yeshua's Name. Then another demon got on my bed and pressed on top of me, almost with an erratic movement, and I woke up and, again, told it to get out!
I think the demons are really, really, active and we need to stay on guard. I'm going to pray through and anoint my home today again.
What an exhausting night!
Oh and regarding the 3rd dream, I had the thought of people stirring the waters cross referencing to Revelation and the sea beast of Rev 13.
Regarding my 3rd dream, waiting on Darrell to come back is symbolic of us waiting on Yeshua to come back.
Hamster or Gerbil or ?
Last night I dreamt that I brought home a cute tiny little hamster or something. I didn't have a cage for it or any food. I think I thought it would just eat the dog food. The next morning I discovered poo all over my house, and I knew it came from the animal. The animal had grown to be much larger, and it looked different too. It looked more like an ostrich now.
I think this is a warning dream. I better watch out who I bring home.
Moving Into a New House For a Year
RUN!
9/30/20
I had this dream about 2 weeks ago. It was while Carla was stying with us because David was deployed to Savannah and there was a questionable car in her apartment complex.
I dreamt I was a little girl sitting on my bed with my two younger sisters. We were all sitting facing the door when a man burst in looking crazy and yelled, "RUN!" He ran back out just as fast as he ran in. We just sat there and wondered where do we run to and what was coming. I woke up so afraid and disturbed that I got up out of bed and went into the living room to tel Darrell. I didn't mean to, but I woke up Carla who was in her room too. She ran out, and I had to pretend that it was nothing, everything was ok. But it wasn't. I still feel so unsettled, and concerned that I am not prepared in any way for the arrival of whatever it is that is coming.
Sunday, September 27, 2020
A Shower in an AirB&B
9/25/20
After 4 days of my 9 day fast before Yom Kippur
A Shower in an Airbnb
After Darrell left for work this morning I fell back asleep and dreamt. I dreamt that Darrell and I were staying in an Airbnb in Virginia (name meaning virgin) on the coast. (This is where most horrendous things are done. It attracts the worst kinds of people.) It was near a large port of navel vessels. We were there for Darrell to receive an award of some kind. He got up and took a shower in the large shower that was across the room, and he left. I got up a little later hearing some noise in the other part of the house. I walked around noticing that we had not rented all of the house. There were 2 sections, one by the front door, that had a room with half a wall of glass. In the room there were animals kept in there like a pet store. (I love most all animals in real life, but I wasn't that interested in these. I don't know why. I feel this is related to my Noah's Ark dream and the animals represent people. ) I simply realized that we might not have the privacy I thought we would have. I walked past the 2nd spot which was much like the first just further in the house. Before I could even brush my teeth, I heard someone talking in our living area. I walked back out to ask they what they were doing there, and I realize it was Matthew McConnehey ("Gift of Yahweh" + "Gift of Yahweh"- WOW! Did he represent Yeshua?). When I walked in I saw he was wrapped up completely in a blanket that was covered from her to toe in dried mud. **(Symbolic of being buried?)** Only his face was exposed. He was charming and kind, and I immediately forgave him for getting the sofa dirty. I knew I had not even brushed my teeth yet, so I didn't want to talk to him.
I headed back to the bedroom to try and shower. Next, I walked over to the shower my husband used and it was quite elaborate. It had a hidden door in the far wall which opened to another adjacent shower. There was no way to secure it from my side, so that one was not an option. Then I went to the shower on the other side of the room which looked much smaller. There were glass walls everywhere all around the room, and now the wall which led to our living area seemed to be the neighbor's house. It was glass too! I kept looking for towels to hang over the tops of the walls and doors so I could have privacy, but I kept dropping them or they were too small or something was happening. I even tiptoed into the neighbor's house to see if she had any large towels. The closest I came to actually taking a shower I turned the shower on and it had a weird shower head like a tuna can. It let out a weak stream of water. I twisted it to create a sharper stream and it did just the opposite and shot the water onto what I noticed were bunk beds. I looked closer at them and I noticed the owner of the house's son who was a young man, but he was mentally challenged. I escorted him out telling him I needed privacy. I got back in the shower and the wall to the street was glass (of course) and I noticed we sat high up on the side of a mountain. There was a busy highway below. I saw a car slow down and throw a woman out of the car. She looked up and saw me and started to climb the mountain to get to me. I think the got to us, but I'm not sure what happened when she did. I also remember looking out the window and seeing all of the backs of these large boats. They were more like large fishing boats than real navel vessels like aircraft carriers.
That's all I remember. It was a very stressful dream because I wanted to take a shower, but I could not get privacy.
Glass represents seeing into the spiritual realm.
Showering represent cleansing oneself from sin
Bad morning breath might represent freshening our spirit / speech.
Mountain is what you climb in an effort to get to Adonai or to rise in spiritual growth.
Water from the shower was weak. :( And it shot out in an unexpected direction hitting a bed.
Bunkbed is where you rest.
Fishing - for souls
Airbnb - Living in the spirit
Girl tossed out of the car - Either she asked to get out or she was dumped. Either way she knew to climb higher.
No privacy? This was the main theme of the dream.
Sneaking into the neighbor's house to find towels?
Towels?
Tuna can?